Monday, August 8, 2011

I'm gonna find my purpose

I've been trying to get back into blogging lately. I've literally pulled up this screen several times and thought to myself, "Okay! HERE WE GO! BLOG TIME!" I even sort of had this tune in my head. It goes like this: "Bloggin again, back on the prowl." Instead of, "Single again, back on the prowl," inspired by this song.


But then I just sit here and stare at all the white space. What should I blog about? I tried looking at other blogs to find inspiration. I tried reading current events to try and think about my opinions and if they speak to any greater issues I'd like to address. I think about blogging about my day or catching people up or treating it like an email to someone I haven't talked to in two years but I find that nothing comes out. Makes me think.

What do I want to say to people? Do I have anything to say?

I guess the nature of blogging is pretty narcisstic when you boil it down. What makes me think people want to read my thoughts? Especially if I don't have a targeted audience. What makes me an authority on anything? Should that even matter? Why am I even writing this?

I still don't have an answer to that. I guess I'm not very willing to share the details of my life with people on the internet but perhaps that will change one day. I guess until then it'll just be about my thoughts. That wasn't very conclusive. I just love blogs and the internet so it makes sense I should have one. As mentioned in previous posts, I've had one since I was about 14. So I guess I'll keep it. Blogging along. Trying to find some clarity. Or purpose. What is purpose? It's that little flame,that lights a fire under your ass.

I'm gonna find it!